wow... where do i even begin?? last message i told you all about how zach was coming to town.. we got married on jan. 18 and i am now preparing to move to washington to be with my husband. it is amazing how fast life can change. this man came back into my life and turned it upside down. it has been hard being apart for two months especially as newlyweds... however we have had to learn better ways to communicate and to work together.. even when the other one is dragging their feet... i have also learned that there will be times he has to take me by the hand and make me do the things i dont want to do and there will be times i have to hold his hand and make him do things that have to be done. a wise woman told me there will be times that im giving 80% and he is giving 20% and there will be times im only giving 20 and he is doing the 80. also heard that most ppl are either 80% compatible or 20% compatible.. some ppl will focus so much on what the person they are with doesnt have that they will find someone who only has that 20% but is missing the 80. i guess you really have to appreciate the person for who they are and how they are and accept the things they arent. this isnt going to be an easy road. especially as we begin to prepare for deployment next year, but i love him.

this move has been very trying. we were going to get a house and everything was going great then it fell through.

unforseen expenses came up that put us short on money to get this move done.. thank god my family is pulling the money together as our wedding present.

we had to go find an apartment but due to a pyscho ex roommate i owed another complex. so we had to pay that off in order to get approved. then we found out that 90% of the complexes in washington do not accept misdemeanors... dh has a misdemeanor.. which completely pisses me off.... you can die for our country but you cant live in our country... so whatever... we finally found a great complex that was willing to work with us... but then we found out that they are going to require an extra 1000 deposit. arggggggg.... that puts us really short on money for the move... it seems like the hits just keep coming...

we are so stressed that we have started fighting... i am so ready for this move to be over!!!

ok thanks for listening to me rant!

OMG so I dated this guy a couple years ago and then due to some bad timing we broke up. We went our seperate ways and I began looking for him when things settled down. Couldn't find him no matter where I looked. Fast forward about 2 years. Found his email address in one of my old old old email accounts. Immediately sent him an email. He answered a couple days later.. as we caught up on what had been happening I found out he was now in the Army and had a daughter now and was single. It was like we never parted ways. We picked up right were we left off.... turned out he hadn't forgotten about me either. He is currently stationed in Washington at Ft. Lewis. He even still had the emails from 2 years ago when we were dating the first time! LOL was amazing to read those. So he just got approved to for a pass to come down here.. I am sooooo excited I can hardly contain myself. Ok so anyways yeah.....

GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE THIS AMAZING CURE FOR EVERYTHING (results may vary)

I am so tired of people who claim they have a cure for psorasis. My grandmother recently got me some stuff that supposedly CURES the uncureable. You dump this mixture of god only knows what into a gallon of water and drink 2 ounces 2 times a day. I can't stand the stuff.. the aftertaste is a mixture between smelly socks and week old fish. If I wanted that taste in my mouth I would go find a hooker.

So this stuff is supposed to cure everything from the common cold to Psorasis. WOW THAT IS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING WHEN EVEN THE MOST HIGH TECH DOCTORS CANNOT EVEN DETERMINE FOR SURE WHERE PSORASIS IS.

For those of you who do not know me I have severe psorasis on my hands and feet. For those who do not know what psorasis is let me enlighten you:

What is the psoriasis cause? While many factors can trigger psoriasis, research indicates that the underlying psoriasis cause stems from your body's immune system.
The immune system makes white blood cells, which protect the body from infection. In psoriasis, the T cells (a type of white blood cell) abnormally trigger inflammation in the skin. These T cells also cause skin cells to grow faster than normal and to pile up in raised patches on the outer surface of the skin. Depending on the type of psoriasis you have, the outward appearance can vary.

Basiscally it is not a "skin disease" like people may think. And for the idiots of the world NO IT IS NOT CONTAGIOUS!!!!!

Ok now that I have gotten that off my chest.. have a great day.

sorry its been a while since my last post... havent really had a lot to blog about. pretty boring life i lead. i work, spend time with my kiddo.. have an occasional date and thats about it. but besides my son my friends are the other lights of my life

so thought i would talk a little about them...

edward, you are an AMAZING MAN!! dont ever let anyone tell you otherwise. and when you find the one for you she will be a very lucky lady. and if she doesnt appreciate what she has im sure i have some heels that would fit in some spots in her body. i love you honey!

lance, you are the love of my life! make me smile when i dont want do. your one of the few men that can call me a bitch ( and yes i know im a bitch ) and get away with it. but you honey are a wonderful person with a huge heart and i love you! you are my other half and truely understand my sagitarius personality since ur one too!

david, you are lances boyfriend and he couldnt ask for a better man by his side.. i love you to death too... u are such a fun person to talk to. and since ur already trained to the sagitarius personality we get along great lol

isaac, dont even really know what to say about you except you have a very special place in my heart and you always will.. thanks for always getting me to step out of my little circle and look at things from a different point of view.

i love you all... thank you for always being there for me. you are some of my true loves in life!

btw edward is super sexy.

one back

so yesterday this guy just completely stomped on my heart. (oh well screw him.. asshole)

then out of no where my first love popped back in my life after not hearing from him for a few months (my fault... kinda weird to be talking to ur first love when ur with someone else)

and out of no where he wants to try things between us again! (its been 7, almost 8 years since we were together)

we have always kept in touch but never tried another relationship. since then ive gone and had a child and grown up a LOT (look up immature little 17 year old and u will find my pic)

now im 25 a mom, mature, steady job, own house, taking care of responsibilities (hmmmm change much?)

anywhoooo...

been thinking a lot about something someone wise told me in regards to my parenting... pick ur battles wisely.. but those u pick u better win.

it has really been echoing through my head lately.. im sure something is coming up that is going to test that

always seems to happen that way.

have a good night